Pomegranatey

I can’t believe it. I know I used to love u. I know it. I loved that feeling so much. I had butterflies in my tummy, I felt fuzzy and stupid and cheesey inside, my mind was never thinking straight when I was around u, I would get my words mixed up when I talked to u and worried that I had just said the stupidest thing ever and want to hit myself in the head. I didn’t wipe that stupid smile off my face for months after I found out u liked me. That day was amazing. I literally jumped up and down that day and I screamed and I was just going insane. Oh my goodness. I wish I said yes when u asked me out. The years we had were amazing. I know it began when we were only 8 years old but i loved u. it was six years. u were such an amazing friend. its been so long now. we barely even talked the past couple of years but i still think about u everyday. i want that feeling back. i somehow have it in my head that if i spend enough time with u again i will feel that way again and i could just hope that u will too. but now i guessed it. i just sat there. now u have a girlfriend. and she lives in canada. and i worry that u find me annoying. i am a terrible person. i miss u but eveything would be better if i just forgot about u and liked you.