Pomegranatey

But now I am because I really need to post something. I feel so confused still but before I could actually stand it but this is going on for too long. I know that if I even liked you, I would get happy evetime I saw you. I would call you when you wanted me to. I would freak out everytime you texted me back. I would get scared everytime I sent a brave text message. I would love hanging out with you no matter what. I would want you to kiss me. I would want you to get close to me. I wouldn’t get annoyed by so many little things you do. I wouldn’t get pissed off when you tell me you miss me. But I do. I’m so fucking selfish. I should be greatful to have someone like you to want me. I should appreciate your compliments and that I have someone that is scared to lose me and someone that thinks about me when they are about to go to sleep. But I don’t. You want to hang out with me and talk to me and kiss me and cuddle with me and be my boyfriend. Some people would kill for that. Girls cry because they don’t have that and I’m not even greatful for you. I’m so stupid and selfish. And still I won’t let go of you. Still, I get jealous thinking of you with other girls. If I don’t even get butterflies around you why won’t I just believe its never going to happen so that I wouldn’t get your hopes up. I’m a tease. I’m so stupid.