Pomegranatey

This is so fucking stupid. I’m so fucking confused. Why is it that yesterday I wanted to be your girlfriend and today I’m so annoyed with you? Why can’t I just figure out my feelins already. Why is it than when I think about you sometimes I just want to hug and kiss you but when you are around I get kind of annoyed by you. I don’t get it and I don’t get you. How come you want to go live your life and be with a bunch of girls and not do anything but party and be physical? Then what’s the point of me? You say you want me to be your girlfriend but you obviously don’t want to go anywhere or have a future so what’s the point? I don’t want to date you for fun and just end it with someones feelings hurt. But I want to like you and I want us to be together I just hate that I don’t feel it. If we aren’t going out now why do I still not want you to be with anyone else? You’re not mine. I don’t think I want you to be mine. Why am I still afraid to lose you? I’m so fucking selfish and I feel so bad about myself. The guy that I used to like is coming back in my life and I haven’t told you. I want to pick you over him but I just want him back because I want to see if I can get the feeling I used to feel with him back. Part of me thinks that I will get the feeling I’ve been saying I want to get with you, with him. But that would mess everything up. It would kill you and you have no idea how conflicted I am right now. I want you to talk to me. I want to know everything and I will tell you everything. Why do we disagree so much? It worries me. I’m so selfish. I don’t know what I want. I don’t know how I feel. I don’t know what is going to happen. I’m so fucking scared.