Pomegranatey

Oh my gosh I want to cry so much right now. I feel pressure building behind my eyes. I don’t even have a good reason for it. My head just hurts so much right now. I feel like I have been replaced. Kicked out. I am so annoying. I am so stupid. Why can’t I be a cool person? Why can’t they accept me as much as they do for others? Am I really that annoying? I am not cute. I am not funny. I see why. This is so stupid that I actually care too. And I feel so bad. I found out so much right now about him. I want to cry. I can’t believe it. It doesn’t change anything but still. I want to hug him forever right now. He was so stupid. I want to comfort him. I wish we fell in love. Why can’t I feel fuzzy around him. I want to. I like him so much I just don’t feel it. I want to like him more. I want to actually feel the way I am supposed to. I want to cry because I don’t feel the way I want to. I miss that feeling so much. My thoughts are repeating. I feel this way more and more everyday. I wonder why its not happening. Why is it taking so fucking long? What if it never happens?