Pomegranatey

I have so much to say I don’t even think I can remember all of it right now. So I really really like you. I’m not in love with you but I like you more and more everyday. Even though you used to be really really quiet and awkward I liked you the first day of summer training practice. I totally facebook stalked you. I told my best friend about the really good looking guy on my cross country team. I think I liked you before you ever liked me so I freaked out whenever we talked. And i remember I saw you at target that one time in July too and I was like O_O and then at training the next day I was like I SAW YOU AT TARGET I think and you were like oh did you? I was also panicing in my head the day we went to burger king and you put your head on my shoulder for the first time. Wow this is gonna go on forever. By the way I’m talking to you on facebook chat right now about radio stations. HOLY CRAP YOU JUST ASKED ME ABOUT A VIVID DESCRIPTION OF WHAT I’M DOING! AND WE’RE BACK to my post. So I used to be kinda sad too because I thought you liked my friend which was at the same time I liked another kid in my advisory and I thought he liked my other friend so I was really really sad. But I don’t like that guy anymore that lasted like a week and now he’s a little annoying. There are a lot of other things I wanna mention but I’m gonna skip. I was freaking out in health after I found your dance invitation on my locker. I feel really bad because I sometimes think I piss you off by not wanting to make us official. It really is because I think its too soon. I mean can you believe the dance was only last friday? Plus I don’t think my parents are ready for me to date which I respect. I want to bring my grades up before anyting too. I get really paranoid sometimes about a lot of things. The guy that I used to really like, we liked each other for 6 years. I am over him. I hate that I compare my feelings that I get for you with how I used to feel about him. This is all very recently. I want to cry because I wanted to like you more than I do. I never got butterflies around you or felt fuzzy around you like I have before. It would scare me. I thought what if it doesn’t happen? I know I should have felt good and I wanted to but I didn’t. I get paranoid that you get annoyed with me sometimes. I actually get paranoid about myself being annoying a lot. Less than I have in the past so at least its better. I am paranoid that you might find this post extremely creepy. I think you are such a cool person. I worry that if we go out we might break up and never ever speak to each other again but that only passed my mind for 5 seconds. Even more recently my like for you has grown a lot in the past two days for some reason and it is possible that you are giving me butterflies now. It just takes time. I think that when guys and girls like each other enough to become boyfriend and girlfriend they should also be best friends before. I had a dream saturday that you just sat on my bed at my dads and we talked and we napped. I want your head on my shoulder. I want your hugs. I want to cuddle and nap with you. I want to get to know you better. You’re so funny. You are the best dancer. I love how you think I am cute. I go back and read your truth is about me and I smile every time. I like how you are cute and a stud muffin at the same time. I like that thing you do when you rub your hair for 10 seconds. You have amazing hair and eyes. I want you to be able to write this much or even more about me. I think I actually can write more. Truth is I like you and I want to like you more… OHMYGAWD am I gonna post this? Are you gonna see it? OMG I’m done for now.